Nascuta in Moldova

Unde-i casa pentru mine? De multe ori sunt intrebata: “Unde e mai bine?” Cum pot sa raspund la intrebarea asta cand pentru mine acasa acasa e in Moldova, acolo unde am facut primii pasi, prima scoala, acolo unde pe straduta mica si plina de soare prima data m-am indragostit?

Moldova e acasa unde e familia si prietenii care mi-au fost alaturi in cele mai ciudate momente din viata(adolescenta), acolo unde prima data am fost dezamagita de oameni dar si cea mai fericita. Moldova e locul, unde am invatat tot ce stiam pana acum doi ani.

Sunt moldoveanca(basarabeanca) si nu mi-e frica sa zic asta, iar faptul ca acum, in Bucuresti, oamenii ma intreaba unde e mai bine, intr-un oarecare mod ma tulbura.

Aici, in Romania, de 2 ani, e toata viata mea, inceputul unei vieti mature, aici sunt sansele mele de a deveni ceea ce-mi doresc cel mai mult. Aici e viata agitata, care in unele momente imi lipseau acasa. Aici e libertatea deplina de a lua deciziile mele, fara a fi influentata de cineva.

Aici sunt oamenii, care ma inteleg din priviri, care imi inteleg orice schimbare de expresie si chiar de respiratie.

Aici s-au petrecut cele mai interesante, ciudate si minunate momente de pana acum.

Sunt nascuta in Moldova, traiesc in Romania, poate voi ajunge in alta tara……dar la un moment dat, conteaza asta? Sau conteaza starea ta emotionala atunci cand te afli undeva?

Si pentru mine, rapsunsul e ca nu exista bine sau rau, exista starea ta emotionala pe care ti-o creezi singur.

E bine aici, acasa….si e bine acolo, acasa acasa.

PS Inspirata de cantecul celor de la Carla’s Dreams-Nascut in Moldova

Silence and ignorance!

When I commit to something it is for real,

When I know that something belongs to me, I work really hard to achieve it, to get it, because this means that you care about the things you do.

I care about the people I have around, so I try to show them that.

And when someone comes, rushes in my life and then disappears, she or he leaves  a big stain on my soul.

It is like my soul is composed of puzzles, and the people whom I love have one piece of it, but then, they forget about that, they get used to that piece and they don’t observe how getting away from me can destroy the integrity of my soul.

Stop it, people! If you don’t want to commit, stop messing around with people hearts, stop exploring someone just because you like the process. It is painful and really disappointing.

Yes, I do like exploring people, but when I start finding more about them I bond with them and then, It is hard for me to break all the friendship and disappear.

I don’t take off without an explanation and I DO say goodbye.

STOP messing with my soul, stop being nice and good to me, stop getting what you want from me and then simply fade, be silent, be absent, be ignorant!!!!!!

STOP appearing when I need you less, just stop being an insensible human being who uses people for its own benefit. It is no good or healthy!!!!!!!!!!!